Hey Ashley — I am so sorry to hear about Pascal. I was tearing up just now on the train reading about your family and him. PDE is terrible at any age but at 10 months is near unimaginable. Just know that you loved him and give him the best life he could have hoped for. And that you really couldn’t have prevented his passing. I know exactly what you mean about the hair, I felt like by just cleaning up I was doing something awful by getting rid of it. Over time I realized that I wasn’t though. I cried off and on for weeks after both Roxy and Zu Zu died but especially after Roxy because her death was unexpected. Purposefully getting out of the house and doing things helped. And while you never forget them, eventually you get to a point where you remember to the great moments more than the loss. I do hope you’ll get another pug someday (maybe a rescue? though we got puppies so I totally get the appeal). Again, sorry for your loss but thanks for reaching out.